you haven't called. it's been about 4 weeks and 2 days. maybe you've forgotten, or just lost track of time. but the point remains that i feel this way. and you've caused this. i used to think that our plans meant something, but i'm second-guessing that. once more, you haven't a clue of how i feel. but it's the same for me. i can only hope you haven't done the unthinkable. i can only feel that you're still around. the energy.

if you're gone. i'm lost.
if you're guilt. i'm shame.
and if i'm hurt. you're the blame.