My life extends far beyond the limitations of me

The World At Large
April 26, 2004 - 2:29 PM

maybe i won't feel that way again but when i walked in the room - i felt what you were seeing. i made a bet and won. you did what i wanted and i didn't know how to react. when all was done, i forgot to thank you, and i really wish i would've. honest. always. but now that i've left, i don't know when i'll be seeing you next. hopefully soon. if it wasn't for that bet, i wouldn't be feeling this .. content with everything. thank you. for those few hours you made me feel like i had a reason.

and the days keep passing and i have nothing to say. still. lifeless and confused, i feel like i'm loosing touch with everyone.

and it hurts to know that they don't trust me when i say no. it's always a lie of mine, while you lie to yourself to say that you're the right person.

but now, there's nothing left of what i felt. he doesn't now, i bet he doesn't even realize. i wouldn't really care if only he hadn't told me he wanted to die. but i guess i'll move one. just like airballoons and humming birds.

there's always a lengthy aftermath left in my mind.

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